lotus caerula, caeruleis verba
coerulea, q.v. caerulea: (latin) blue, deep blue, esp. referring to sea or sky.

poems and other sharp languorous beautiful things

in bloom
masquerade

you answered the door with your mask on.

later me beneath you my body stumbling fragrant
back to yours you would place
it on my face,
covering my eyes,

the same way i do
when i

— and you, aching,
move

(the moon ate a ragged hole
in the sky last night
i watched it on my walk over
gibbous eyes peering through the clouds)

as though we merely blinked our way blinded
through this last lost month,
as though if we were hard
and fast
and painful enough
we could get it all back

— and while your heart
was still racing

i picked the mask up off the floor 

xiv

i’m not sorry about the orgasms,

how i plucked them from your skin—

tea dress

the last time i wore this yellow silk shift i was
on my knees in the darkest aisle
of the library, your hands
twining stories into my hair
our heads bowed as if in prayer and later,

later you pulled up the edge of this
yellow silk shift like it was nothing,
slipped hand to skin and skin and
in that heavy lignin-darkness
i could feel my body arc to meet yours, stumbling,

spines against spines the only things holding us
upright and now i do not wear this dress,
i never did,

it merely floats
around
my trembling
hips 

rough sex poem ii

after being thrown around
in the bowery
i was craving marks
in my skin so

we had
really
rough
sex

& then you read an academic paper &
i curled up next to you
& fell asleep
at 4 am

roof

my tongue
is tracing tiny circles
on the roof of my mouth &

i am already
wondering
how you might
take off
my clothes 

rough sex poem

want yr hand
around the flat of my wrist & pinning & twist
twist
twist
easy like clipping
feathers
on
the bird
you trained to sing yr name
over & over again
don’t let me see
anything don’t let breathe me don’t let me don’t let me
i just want to feel this
wrecked
again
again
again

you called me opium

i wish
you had overdosed

on
my
skin

heat ii

i slide an ice cube up and down
the length of my inner thigh very slowly

until
it
melts
completely
and

my fingers forget the feel
of my own skin 

small lovely things #3

hands warm: a run,
or a shower,
or too much of— everything,

slivers of chocolate naked out of their
silver foil specked with salt,

melting mindlessly on your fingers

small lovely things #2

& the lipstick print it leaves,
open-mouthed,

staring soft, heavy